Looks like I lied back in February when I said that I would try to write more; as I haven’t sat and typed words on this blog in almost 3 months. Well, rather than dwell on this, I figured I’d use it as motivation to launch a new format on here called ‘Q&A’ as a way to incrementally write. I have a ton of notes/topics in my rough drafts that aren’t fully fleshed out but could still be useful, so I figured why not post some of these in a Q&A format where I answer a few questions in a short version that’s easily digestible to readers.
Some of these may be explored further in the future, but for the interim, here’s a summary of my random thoughts as soundbites (wordbites?)
What’s become more important to me recently than ever before?
Spending time with my friends and family. As I’ve gotten older, the topic of mortality and the realization that we’re all going to die has become more conscious in my brain. While it does scare me to think of a day when either my loved ones or myself will be gone, I’d rather focus on the present instead since it’s still here and waiting to be lived. As a result, over the last few years (especially due to COVID), I have really tried to prioritize seeing people who mean a lot to me in my life and making memories with these people that will last the rest of our lives. Here’s to many more.
Which one of my mistakes taught me the most this past year? What did it teach me?
From a business perspective, taking the role at Veestro without doing more due diligence is something that I now know to dig further into before joining a company. I should have asked about the health of the business, cash flow/financials, and goals for the future. Just because it sounded like a great opportunity on paper clearly didn’t translate to real life.
From a personal perspective, it was not accepting what people do in front of me and instead going with my own belief of how I wanted them to act. I ignored a bunch of red flags in hopes that they were just one-offs and not the truth, which ended up hurting me more in the long run as I became disappointed with the outcomes of having a relationship with these individuals. I also set unrealistic expectations that weren’t fair to any of us and I was further hurt by this. I learned to accept those for as they are, which may mean there isn’t a place in my life for them even if I want them to be.
What is one truth I’ve come to terms with recently?
I haven’t fully come to terms with this yet but I’m working on accepting that I deserve to be loved and that I can give my love to someone else in a positive and non-toxic relationship. It doesn’t always have to be hard between two people for it to be fulfilling or feel ‘worth it’.
What’s the most exciting improvement I’ve been seeing in myself recently?
The ability to give and receive love. It hasn’t been easy, it’s definitely scary, but it’s also so nice to be able to be myself with Isa and have someone who is there for me through life. I’m not sure what the future has in store and I’m sure it will be tough at times but it’s slowly starting to sink in that I choose Isa and she chooses me. That in itself is a wonderful feeling.